The Good. The Bad. and the Ugly.

Many people have told me that life just wouldn't have "balance" if we didn't have bad things happen with the good in our lives. If you know me, then you know the situation I am in right now.

Sometimes I just don't understand how things happen. How things can be perfectly great one day and then you are pushed into a day of uncertainty the next. All things happen for a reason and this could simply be a blessing in disguise (if you know what I am talking about, then you know this was probably a blessing). But it doesn't change the fact that things are difficult now, that I don't yet see the end result, and don't exactly see the blessing in all of this.

I must simply rely on God that He has my interests protected - surely His grace will abide.

Confusion.

I will never understand people. or life. just when you think everything makes sense, God goes and turns it around on you. i can finally breathe one big sigh of relief - watch out world! here i come!

Blessings

After a long and tiring weekend, I thought I'd take a few moments to reflect on the blessings that God has been able to give to Jim and myself.

Kaeli, David, and Jonathan spent the night on Sunday into Monday morning - although the store and Lone Star (!) was a little challenging, we managed to have a fun time and I love curling up with them on the couch picking a movie or baking cookies - they also helped get ready for the party on Memorial Day!

To Joanna and Eduardo: Thank you for assisting us in the process of getting our first home and for making the entire experience memorable and smooth.

To David, Jason, Erik, Drew, Ken, Todd, Dad: Thank you for helping us move and prepare for our new home - even though some things presented challenges (two ton armoire and awkward sleeper sofa).

To Mom, Aunt Lois, Marisa, Jessica: Thank you for your decorating tips, insight, cleaning and organization ability. The place certainly would not have come together without any of you.

We had the opportunity to thank all of these people through a BBQ yesterday (our first annual...). Jim fired up the grill (it actually worked apart from a few singed hairs) and the food was fantastic. The menu was truly a great spread. (Todd, Erik, and Drew - we have an IOU for you guys).

While we take memorial day to remember those that have given their lives for this great country, Jim and I took the opportunity to thank those who have given time and love to support us. Thank you.

Moving Day

It seems like only yesterday we moved into our Oak Park apartment! It has been two years and the time has come for us to move again - to an actual home that we own!

Thank you in advance for assisting with the move:

Mom
Dad
David
Jason
Marisa
Jessica
Missy
P. Erik
Drew
Ken
Todd
Lee
Aunt Lois

All of your effort and hardwork will be paid off tomorrow night after all of our stuff is moved in! We will surely have all of you over a housewarming party! Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!
New address to be posted later!

Reflection

on second thought, after consideration, perhaps my last blog was a little sardonic and bitter. but i want to assure the few of you that read this, that i am in fact happy to be graduated.

thank you to the following for showing up!

mom
dad
jim
jason
jessica
marisa
david
kaeli
david
jonathan
kathleen
grandma murphy
annie
rhonda
bill
aunt lois
eros
linda
ed
professor emmerich
susan
lydia
erik
bethany
chris
alicia

with regards to my bosses from work, they had mentioned the graduation for weeks prior AND had even texted me that morning assuring me they would be there. after the graduation, they had no excuse and did not even explain that they could not make it. that would be the part that upsets me. if you decide to back out, fine. but at least have the common courtesy to let me know.

At any rate, I am happy to have graduated and look forward to studying for the Bar.

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On another note, Jim and I have begun moving into our new place! I can hardly wait to start decorating and putting things away! we are moving the big stuff on saturday, if you committed to helping us, please comment and i can give you details - you will be FED!!

Life.

Why does it seem that everytime life goes in a happy direction, there always seems to be a downside that follows.

For those of you who either may not know or may not care, I graduated this weekend. Truly an accomplishment. But the day did not happen as I expected. Why is it that when we expect the good out of people, we instead only find ourselves disappointed?

My bosses had promised to attend my graduation, even that morning texting me and telling me they would be proud to see me walk. After the graduation, I realized they had not shown up at all. They did not text me the entirety of the weekend to let me know why or explain their actions. Instead, they chose to ignore me.

My friend, Tom, unfortunately, could not make it either. He was called in early to work and I truly missed his presence there. I know he still loves and supports me.

I won't go into the other "let-downs" of the day, but let's just say that some were par for the course. To say that I am angered, would be an understatement. To say that I am disappointed, would be a misstatement. To say that I just don't understand would be accurate. Why do I let myself continually be compared? Why do I try and live up to the standards that others set for me? Why do I allow myself to fall into these traps?

Congratulations, graduate. Who gives a hoot.

I'm a blahger.

I thought that joining www.myspace.com or www.facebook.com would constitute the dark side. However, I now realize that joining a blogging site must truly indicate that I have lost it. I can't wait to start a virtual diary. Come back all, y'hear.