Confidence, Inner Peace.

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7 (NKJV)

In this journey, I have been in tune with each and every thing that God has asked me to do. While restoring relationships, I turned to a relationship in my life that seems utterly broken. With an anniversary of 10 years approaching and my bitterness for the situation only growing, I decided to give it to God. I always knew in the back of my mind that my sixty days would culminate in this way, but tried to convince myself otherwise.

God’s request was simple: talk to him. (I finally knew this was what God would have me do when Marisa mentioned that perhaps it “wouldn’t be a bad idea.”) I sent an email requesting a meeting and to my surprise (and somewhat chagrin), he agreed. I’ve gone over in my head ten thousand times, just what I would say to him, not caring about the outcome. I’m reminded of the story of Esther and how God has chosen me for this time, for such a time as this.

I don’t know what will happen once I take this leap of faith, but I know this is God’s will – the direction He’s asked me to take. It’s scary and exciting all in one breath, but I can’t quite put my finger on what makes this so phenomenal. His path has led me here and I’m hoping my inner peace about the situation will give me confidence.

Lord, you know the situation and you’ve set things into motion, long before you chose to use me. Help me to find the right words and emotions to relate to him. Help me to have an inner peace about the situation, whether or not the outcome is one that I expect. Thank you.