Have you ever been at a point of desperation in your life? At a point, when you just want something to give way, but it seems like everything is battling against you? You're suffocating under the weight of life's burdens.
I've been there recently - something has to give, break through and I'm not sure how much longer I can keep trudging along in this direction. Is freedom just through the trees, just steps away? Or have I been heading in the wrong direction all along?
As a human being on the swirling planet, I find myself craving just ONE other person who's exactly where I'm at - who knows exactly what I'm going through, what I'm dealing with. Who knows what it's like to feel this way. I think that's why we struggle so much - because no one is just like us, no one knows just what we are dealing with - they just don't get it.
Not for lack of sympathy, but they lack empathy - the ability to know how we feel and justify how we're feeling about life. Why is it so hard to hear advice and suggestions from someone who hasn't been there?
Why do we weigh and measure our burdens against each other? Let's see who is suffering more today. There will always be someone worse off than you, but we only seem to see those ahead of us. Why is that?
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change and the courage to face my weaknesses. Help me to realize that there is no other person on this earth who knows where I've been or where I'm going, but you do. Help me to fully and wholly place my trust in you when I feel at my lowest point, but also when I'm soaring with the eagles. I need Your help.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Struggles.
Posted by Samantha at 10:54 AM
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I know you're feeling alone. Maybe I'm wrong, but I don't think someone always has to go through exactly the same things to understand another's pain. Sadly, pain seems to be universal.
We all go through hard times. I struggled with keeping my emotions in check throughout high school, and I always felt either completely depressed or pretty manic. That was a rough time. Strangely, there was nothing in particular that was depressing at the time, but *I* was depressed.
Somehow (maturity? life experiences? I'm not sure), I learned how to keep my emotions in check. I learned to understand that people weren't hurting me on purpose. Rather, I wasn't in control of my emotions and always let others influence them.
I might not know exactly what you're going through. Hell, I can't even be sure I know what you're referring to!
I can tell you, though, that we've all experienced pain and loss in one form or another, and, because of that, I can genuinely say I'm sorry you're struggling right now.
Both of my grandmas died over the winter. Sometimes, I feel completely hollow from it and feel next to nothing. Other times, I feel happy in my memories. Other times, I feel angry about what's happened. There are other moments when I feel really, really scared that everyone's getting older. It's a strange point in my life.
Perhaps you still have a grandparent alive (I hope so!). Even if you do, I'm sure you can imagine the emotional struggle it can be losing someone who's always been in your life.
I hope that unusually long analogy helps you to know that people can know what you're feeling, even if they haven't experienced your exact experiences. Does that make sense?
I'm here for you, Lady, and I know I'm not the only one!
I'm sorry, but NO ONE can tell you they completely understand because NO ONE has been in YOUR shoes! EVERYONE is different. Yes, we may have similar situations or similar feelings, but we cannot say we completely understand because we are not walking in YOUR SHOES.
You take YOUR time. It is hard to give EVERYTHING over to God. It is hard to trust completely in Him. Why when He DOES know how we feel? I don't know? Why when He did create us and knows what we need? I don't know. I guess because we are human and stupid at times. But it is hard. KEEP TRYING. Don't give up! Keep trusting in God. Keep believing. You just CAN'T GIVE UP. That is all I can tell you.
I have also been going through ups and downs. My life has been a roller coaster. Right when things seem to be getting better the devil tries to steal my JOY. DON'T LET HIM! GET IT BACK! THAT IS YOUR JOY. YOU DESERVE IT! GOD GAVE THAT TO YOU!
God created you. You deserve to live your life with your head held high and a smile on your face. You are a child of the king. You will be ok. Even when you feel like you have hit the lowest of lows. Just crawl up on God's lap and let him wrap his arms around you. You are his daughter. He loves you .
Take your time. Spend your time with Him and He will show you what you need to do! Us humans can't give you what HE can!
LOVE YOU!
Proverbs 14:10 "Each heart knows it's own bitterness and no one else can share it's joy."
I didn't understand this verse for a long time. But the older I get, the more clear it has become. Although there are those in life who can help carry burdens, no one can really understand the personal struggle that is inside each of us.
Except that is, for Christ. Pslam 91 says to find "rest in the shadow of the Almighty God."
The ONLY one who can truly understand. I think it is designed to be that way, so we cling to Him and Him alone.
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